So i watched this dvd a friend let me borrow called "the secret" and at first glance it seems like a bunch of metaphysical feel good hippie shit but it carries a true message.
If you think it and dwell on it, it can become realized. Basically that you can will the universe to form whatever shape you wish around you. Not like..bending spoons with your mind kind of cool but something to ponder none the less. I am a firm believer in mind over matter but it's the proper use of that which has eluded me for some time now. You are surrounded by what you create..if you complain all the time life will always seem a bit dingy to you, but if you choose to change your attitude midstream and hold on to positive thought, you can turn what seems to be dark into light. Now some people will be skeptical and that's alright, but that only helps feed my own belief. For those who talk shit, usually have shit stuck on their boots already and haven't been able to shake it off.
This works for everything from your health to wealth to "job performance" lol. (you'd get that if you read my last journal.) Positive thinking isn't enough, it's the will to act upon the positive that is truly the secret. If i think hey i'm gonna have a comic book by this time next month it does me no good unless i put myself in place to make it happen by buying necessary tools to complete such a task, write, draw, and publish my work and watch it grow. The thing is most people have a problem with that second part and it's usually because life gets in the way or people at least believe that is what is happening. If you constantly make excuses for why something is not happening in your life such as why you are in debt or why you have poor health or why you have a crappy job...then the circumstances surrounding you will be built on those thoughts as they drag you down further into the quicksand of mediocrity. I choose to rise above and get back to my roots when stress was nothing more to me than a 1 syllable word people used to describe lifes ever present toubles.
I urge you all this next month to think on something that may seemingly be out of your reach but is a possibility on some level of reality no matter how rediculious. Ponder that wish...do you want better health do you want more creativity, maybe you want a car or to be left alone at work....whatever the case may be, ponder on it, imagine it is already happening..not that it will happen but that it is already there in your life..no matter what the cost keep that positive attitude in mind. THEN get back to me after one month and we'll compare notes.
I will have at least one script for a comic book idea i have finalized, I will be enrolled into the local college to take some courses to further my career and make more money, I will be more creative than i've ever been in my life and pump out more deviations in this next month than i have in the past 4. I will have a savings account with a little money in it for a rainy day which i've NEVER had, and finally, i will of found the balance between family, fun, and work and everyone will be happy with it.
those are my thoughts, respond if you feel the need to but this was more of a confirmation of thoughts i just stumbled upon.
Going to go sleep so i can have a great day tomorrow...be well all!
-TPOD the enlightened
a few people i'd like to recognize for outstanding comments and support as well as having true artistic potential
and my brother
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T to tha P to tha O to the D
Wow! 
i'm gonna see about uploading some stuff to VOID. Cut my teeth and see how people react to the character from a strictly action story perspective. If you can get action you can do anything i feel. So stay tuned.
gave me. I was able to download a prefab dvd maker and put together the project for my friend with NO learning curve and about 30 minutes of research. The longest part of the whole thing was the actual burning of the disc so thanks for all the tips and tutorials everyone sent my way I appreciate it.
So yeah go check it out! DO IT...DO IT NOW!
Joy 
I have done 9 total which most I'll be uploading in a few minutes. Check em out tell me what you think and swing by his page to give him props. They are all characters based on his concept and a few he even drew but most were drawn but an unknown and i'd love to give him credit but he is not on Deviantart i don't think. If anyone recognizes the work let me know. Patreek has given me permission to post what i've done if i put a watermark of sorts on it but it appears you can no longer drag and drop artwork off the site which rocks! NO MORE RIPPING!
I have 2 in the works and one will be up just after i finish this journal. I'm thinking of just doing flats for a while so i can play catch up and then whenever i have free time the hard shit is done and i can just work on it the way i want. Trying a few things to see if i can't get my speed up and yeah i'm a little rusty but it's all good cause I have the desire and passion for it again. It's amazing how much your job can affect your mood especially towards the things you love. Think about it though it's 8 hours of your day 5 days a week (usually) that's nearly a third of the total hours in a week. A second third is spend sleeping (for most of us) and the other third is the few hours you get after work and the weekend which is usually spent doing chores or what have you. SO when all that time is spent in an environment that trains you to feel hate and conditions you to be decietful and pretend around certain people..of course it affects the rest of your life. I'm just glad i got out while the gettin was good. Word on the street is the place i was working will be outsourcing in 3 years. They are in the works of changing the ad distribution system over to online which means they can control everything from a supervisory terminal, meaning from ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD. Get what i'm saying? So yeah i'm glad i'm gone. Of course they won't tell anyone but when you over hear managers spouting about it you can't help but wonder....was i being scrutinized like so many others there in order to be pushed out the door so they don't have to pay severence packages? hmmm? yeah..conspiracy.
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